Self-expression

self–expression
noun | self–ex·pres·sion | \-ik-ˈspre-shən\
:  the expression of one’s own personality :  assertion of one’s individual traits
: the expression of your thoughts or feelings especially through artistic activities (such as painting, writing, dancing, etc.)

I have always been inspired by different forms of self-expression whether it be through an artistic, physical, written or even technical means.

Throughout the years I spent my time learning different crafts, some of which have stayed with me up until this day. Some forms of self-expression that have struck a chord with me include: sketching, handwriting, skateboarding, video editing, blogging, body building, dance, and currently web design & development.

I realized when gradually building up my knowledge over the years for skills I am passionate about, I have an inclination to naturally share what I learn with others.

Dance in particular has been a large influence in my life. Breakin’ (or breakdance if you will) was one of the first major forms of self-expression that I truly felt free in. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about dance at least once.

Writing I would have to say is surprisingly my next strongest point. I say surprisingly because I never started out as a naturally talented writer.

During my early days at UC Irvine, my alma mater, I was initially placed into a pre-writing course since my skills were apparently not up to par with the UC standards. How I even got accepted into UCI with a sub-par writing level is questionable to a certain extent given that UC universities hold such high standards regarding writing.

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ZOT ZOT ZOT! UCI’s Mascot: The Anteater

Though I might never know the real reasoning behind my acceptance, I truly believe that I am part of a very small percentage that was accepted on a case-by-case scenario. I think the real reason had to do with my continued efforts and dedication for the study of the Japanese language, the subject I had applied to major in. But this is another story in and of itself that can be saved for another time.

Fast-forward some years later and guess what I’m doing. I’m living in Japan working as an English teacher at a private high school and I’m teaching… wait for it…

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WRITING!

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Yeah, the very thing I sucked at is now the thing I teach to high school kids. Funny how that works out right?

But you know, it turns out that I really do love writing and I wouldn’t be teaching it for a living, let alone doing right now on this blog, if weren’t true.

This is one of the reasons why I love WordPress so much. It’s because as a platform, it empowers you to be yourself. It gives you a means to express freely. It holds no bars as to what you can or cannot say and that’s what makes it so great.

 

 

2 thoughts on “Self-expression

  1. Dude, that’s you in the break dancing video? Amazing…truly an inspiration. Did you find it hard to teach English in front of a class? That sounds frightening to me…but someday I hope to be confident enough to do something like that.

    I had severe problems with self-expression my entire life (except for when I was a child – like until age 11). It became so bad that I could barely even speak more than a few words to most people without feeling like I wanted to cry. Any form of self-expression in front of other people was extremely tough for me.

    I also just recently realized that I was blaming the fact that I was an INFJ for EVERYTHING. The problem was just that I was too afraid to break out of my comfort zone. But I’m getting better at this. Creating my blog was actually a huge step to breaking out of my comfort zone and curing my problems with self-expression.

    I don’t know if you mind me asking, and you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to..but how old are you?

    1. Dude, that’s you in the break dancing video? Amazing…truly an inspiration.

      Yeah, I can’t even believe that was nearly ten years ago… (i was twenty i think, heheh).

      Did you find it hard to teach English in front of a class?

      At first, I was of course really nervous, but I can say almost all new teachers feel the same way. Over time, through many trial and error situations, and a lot of personal development, it became something I enjoyed. I’m still learning till this day.

      Any form of self-expression in front of other people was extremely tough for me.

      I feel you. I think it’s just a matter of building self-confidence in something you feel deeply about, or want to improve on first, and then using that as a foundation to build confidence in other things. For me, hip-hop culture was sort of my stepping stone to that path of self-confidence. It provided an outlet to so many forms of self-expression. The music gave me inspiration, the dance gave me a sense of empowerment, and for a while I got into graffiti art which was also another way to express myself. The beauty about all this was that I never needed to do it in front of anybody if I didn’t want to. But once I got to a certain point from gaining so much from this culture, after getting to a certain level of skill in the crafts I was learning and practicing, I realized I needed to give back in any way or form. And the most basic way of giving back is to teach. At this point, performing on stage, or teaching a workshop, these were things that involved being in front of people but I never thought about that, since I was confident in what I was doing, and more importantly, I was just doing what I love.

      I also just recently realized that I was blaming the fact that I was an INFJ for EVERYTHING. The problem was just that I was too afraid to break out of my comfort zone. Creating my blog was actually a huge step to breaking out of my comfort zone and curing my problems with self-expression.

      Breaking out of comfort zones is the hardest thing, but also one of the best things! It’s where all the growth happens. I never compromise who I am when I try to do new things or things I’m not comfortable with, instead I always just try to think of it as an opportunity to improve on the things I’m not good at.

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